It’s wedding season
It’s hard to believe for me but I think I have entered wave 1 of wedding season.
It feels like just yesterday all my friends were playing smash brothers on a small TV, eating chips and drinking vodka shots with no chase in our parents’ basements. And now today my friends are getting married left and right.
This year I was invited to 4 weddings and 3 of them are friends my age. One of the weddings I attended was the wedding of 2 of my oldest childhood friends. I met them when we were all 12 years old! I literally grew up watching these two losers pretend like they didn’t like each other and now they’re in love and married with a dog and a mortgage.
It’s just crazy to me that now we are at this point in our lives.
I went on an annual summer trip with my high school squad this year and in one conversation with my friend, who is the first in our group to be engaged, was talking to me about how next year she might have a child and so the annual trip would be a very different experience for her.
Again, this is just crazy that we are talking about this and it’s actually something that might happen.
A baby! Me or my friends being parents???? I can still barely cook a fried egg without getting nervous. A lot of people still don’t know how to build good credit. Some people don’t even know what the password to their CRA account is. My own boyfriend doesn’t even make his own dentist appointments.
I know most of us are almost 30 years old so all of this is normal stuff that makes sense but I. just. can’t. believe. it.
This is all happening and this is all good stuff and wonderful milestones and things we all want in our lives but with all the weddings and the babies poppin’ out, I’m just sitting here reveling in the realization that this is the beginning of a whole new chapter in our lives. A chapter that includes so much more love and bravery and scary things like back pain.
Before I realized it, our lives have already become different from before. We no longer play video games until the AM together or spontaneously drop by each other’s houses and eat all the snacks. We don’t do crazy silly things like climbing over fences and laughing really loud in an empty elementary school playground late at night. We do not have those kinds of simple days anymore.
When I think about people who are married and have children, I think about my parents. And my image of my parents have changed a lot from when I was a kid/teenager to now.
Nowadays, when I think of parents or an adult, I think wow how they did do it all? How did they immigrate to a new country and not speak the language and just get jobs and buy a house and make new friends? How did they nurse a newborn without much help while all their family and friends were in a whole other country? How did they figure out how to lease or finance a car? How did they learn how to renovate a washroom by themselves? How did they figure everything out without Google and now it’s my turn to do all this stuff?
It’s crazy and I don’t know about anyone else, but I still don’t know what the hell I am doing some days and all I have to take care of is myself and my dog.
I wish there was some kind of device that could summarize all the years that have gone by and give me a couple seasons of a wholesome and funny sitcom featuring me and all the people I care about. A show where I can watch our friendships deepen, love develop, and all the things we learn from each other along the way.
We are growing up and it all feels so sudden even if it was happening in front of our eyes the whole time.
I wish I could just see it all again for a little bit.
Sincerely, Loewe